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Tuesday, March 20, 2012

Giving Up



I've given up nursing Oskar. And I feel pretty terrible about it. I tried everything and I still lost my milk and he wouldn't nurse at all most of the time. We had a day or two where he was doing great but then he changed his mind and wanted the easy food again. So it sucks. I've been trying to think about the good things that will come of this, like being able to really exercise, and wear a bra that doesn't make my boobs super saggy, and no more pumping, and eating normal again. But I would still rather nurse him, I guess that doesn't matter though. The good news is he's still really cute and precious and I love him so much.

I went back to the dentist yesterday, but this time it was a good dentist who numbed my mouth topically before he gave me the 7 shots in my mouth, unlike the stupid dentist who didn't numb me or even warn me that he was sticking a needle in my gums over and over. The new dentist had to completely take out the filling and redo the root canal that the other stupid mean dentist did. He put a post in my tooth and put a crown on it so now you can't even tell that it was broken. We did have to pay for the crown but it was worth it, especially since he said if I didn't have the crown I probably would have to get the tooth pulled eventually. Joel threatened to sue the mean dentist but I'm sure I signed something when I went in there saying I wouldn't sue no matter how incompetent the guy is.

6 comments:

Keri said...

Considering all that you have been through over the last few months, I'm surprised you perservered as long as you did. He got what he needed during his most critical time, so you did good. You did GREAT all things considered. Don't feel bad. In many ways, it will be easier this way. And that dumb dentist. You should take up Joel on his offer to sue.

ktb said...

Good heavens Jamie! You are amazing and I am so proud of you!! I'm sorry you aren't nursing and that you had the most terrible dentist ever! I miss you lots!! xoxo

Jessica and Tyler said...

If it makes you feel any better, my mom didn't nurse any of us and I turned out COMPLETELY normal.....(; but seriously, you did so good. Oskar will be just fine. And now you can come eat garden burgers with me. (: good job mom!

Kelsey said...

You did great Jamie. Oskar is maybe just a bit stubborn. Let us hope that this is not a preview of major attitude to come...

Ruth McKimson said...

You can always "relactate," right? I read online that an adoptive mom nursed her baby . . . as well as a man. Really???!!!!! Oh! The man produced breast milk . . . not the woman nursing the man.

Maren B said...

You've got enough to worry about without beating yourself up about breastfeeding. You did the best you could, and you will be blessed for it. As for the dentist who did not do the best he could...you should at least put a review online to warn other customers of your experience, and write him a letter if you have the energy.